I simply love quotes and quoting people in normal conversations. When you quote people I think it makes you seem smart and helps back up the point you are trying to prove. That's not the reasons I like quotes though. I like them because they are beautiful and make me happy. All quotes make me happy, no matter how sad they are. I like them even more if they are anonymous or from a deceased person. I think it has more of an impact this way. They are also have more of an impact if they are from a speech. The ones I seem to like the most are ones that can be interpreted in many different ways. Everyone has their own opinion and when it comes to those types of quotes, you can tell how people really think by the way they interpret the quotes. In this post I wanted to share a few (yes, it is only a few) of my favorites:
"If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again."
"It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more." Anonymous
"Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in Heaven where the love of our lost ones pours down through and shines down upon us to let us know that they are happy." Eskimo Legend
"Thomas Edison's last words were, 'It's very beautiful over there.' I don't know where there is, but I believe it's somewhere, and I hope it is beautiful." John Green, Looking for Alaska
"If people were rain, I was a drizzle and she was a hurricane." John Green, Looking for Alaska
"Even the knowledge of my own fallibility cannot keep me from making mistakes. Only when I fall do I get up again." Vincent van Gogh
"Failure is so important. We speak about success all the time. It is the ability to resist failure or use failure that often leads to greater success. I've met people who don't want to try for fear of failing." Jo (J.K.) Rowling
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." Dr. Seuss
"Even a clock that does not work is right twice a day." Polish Proverb
"Reality is but an interpretation of the imagination." Deb Ivarsson
"The thinking that got us to where we are is not the thinking that will get us to where we want to be." Albert Einstein
"What the caterpillar calls the end of the world the master calls a butterfly." Richard Bach
"We cannot help, everyone, but everyone can help someone." Ronald Reagan
"There are two ways to live life: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle." Albert Einstein
"Am I not destroying my enemies when I make friends of them?" Abraham Lincoln
Books read: 7
Monday, February 28, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Labyrinth of Suffering
If given the choice, would I live forever?
NO! I would never ever, ever want to live forever. I don't know why anyone would want to live forever. What's the point? I just don't want to live for a long time. Not even long enough to go to a nursing home. If I do live forever, I would feel miserable. I would watch my friends and family die, while I'm still stuck living life. I would get so tired of going to everyone else's funerals. What I'm saying is that I would be sad and lonely after awhile. I would be stuck. In the book Looking for Alaska by John Green (highly recommended), Alaska seems to always be thinking about something she read, which said, "How will I ever get out of this labyrinth?" She later thought that the labyrinth was suffering and everyone is stuck in a maze. If I live forever I would lose everyone I love and I would suffer. I would be stuck in this labyrinth of suffering. My only way out would be to die and possibly join them in afterlife if there really is one, which is the biggest mystery.
"Now comes the mystery." ~last words of Henry Ward Beecher
books read: 7
"Now comes the mystery." ~last words of Henry Ward Beecher
books read: 7
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Reading
I love to read. This year I am going to put my reading skills to the test. I am going to attempt the 50 book challenge! If you don't know what that is, then you can just guess by the name of it. I have to read 50 books in one year. I am already off to a good start. I am on my 7th book. It's a good thing I have no life, otherwise this wouldn't work at all!
Here are some books I'm planning on reading this year:
Why do I like reading? I don't know. I have never been good at sports or anything, but I became a good reader. I would read with my dad every day, which got me very interested in reading. Believe it or not I went to reading help for a year because I was behind on my reading level in first grade. I remember I kept pronouncing "all" as "al" because my parents told be it was the first three letters of my brother's first name, "Allen." When you say "Allen," you hear "Al" not "all" which confused me for the longest time.
I guess I really like reading because for awhile you can live someone else's life. You step into a different world and become a new person. For example while reading the Hunger Games, you can imagine yourself as Katniss. You think about what she will do and wonder what you would do if you were placed in her situation. I don't know, it's just a cool experience. I don't like movies as much though, because you are witnessing the character's lives and not living them. That may not make sense, but it's common logic to me.
Books read: 6
Here are some books I'm planning on reading this year:
- Paper Towns by John Green
- Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green and David Levithan
- Uglies series by Scott Westerfeld (reread)
- The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson
Why do I like reading? I don't know. I have never been good at sports or anything, but I became a good reader. I would read with my dad every day, which got me very interested in reading. Believe it or not I went to reading help for a year because I was behind on my reading level in first grade. I remember I kept pronouncing "all" as "al" because my parents told be it was the first three letters of my brother's first name, "Allen." When you say "Allen," you hear "Al" not "all" which confused me for the longest time.
I guess I really like reading because for awhile you can live someone else's life. You step into a different world and become a new person. For example while reading the Hunger Games, you can imagine yourself as Katniss. You think about what she will do and wonder what you would do if you were placed in her situation. I don't know, it's just a cool experience. I don't like movies as much though, because you are witnessing the character's lives and not living them. That may not make sense, but it's common logic to me.
Books read: 6
Summer.
I love summer. It's that simple. I love the warm sun beaming on my face, the gentle breeze that cools you down every once and awhile, the amount of time I get to spend with my friends and family, and no school.
Many people claim that summer is their favorite season, but they really don't mean it. They just don't like school. I don't think that saying you like summer because school is out should count as a reason for liking the summer. If you like the summer, spend it right. By this I mean use the extra time you have away from school doing something fun and create lasting memories. My favorite memories from the summer usually have to do with the fourth of July. I always see my family for at least a week during July. When this happens it's a HUGE get together.
Last year my family all met in Indiana at my uncle Jeff's house. I love going there because he lives by farms, so he has an absurd amount of land just to hang out on. People play volleyball, ride go-carts, jump on the trampoline, go swimming, play corn hole (if you don't know what that is, you are missing out!), play football, and eat food. I had to include eating because when my family gets together there is no break from cooking. Last summer my family made enough food to fill out half of my uncle's barn! Sadly, I wasn't pleased because people devoured the mac & cheese, which was basically the only food there I liked. Well, I liked the desserts, but my mom limited me on them... Most of the food was the food listed on the dislike list in my FOOD FIGHT post. One more thing I forgot to mention when I listed things my family does at my uncle Jeff's house, is light fireworks. My family may spend a little too much money on fireworks. Last year we went to "Mark's Fireworks Factory Outlets". It's my favorite place to go for fireworks only because around the fourth of July they give out free T-shirts. Anyways, we went there and got over $400 worth of firework, but we only paid $300 dollars. The people who worked there were nice enough to give us around $100 of fireworks free.
If you can't tell by now, my uncle Jeff's house if pure fun. Another cool thing I like about visiting my family is that I usually always stay with my aunt Debbie. She works at Purdue University and knows that I want to attend college there. She is sure to load me up on Purdue merch. before I leave. My aunt always brings up the idea of going to the water park while we are there. It's usually my mom, dad, aunt Debbie, grandma, grandpa, brother, cousins Madison, Kaitlin, and Laura, and me. I usually spend most of my time on the lazy river and going down the water slide. It's loads of fun and my cousins usually spend our time chasing each other around the lazy river. We're strange, I know.
That is all packed into one week at the beginning of July. The rest of the summer I am home with friends. We ride our bikes to Dairy Queen occasionally, have bonfires, and multiple sleepovers. I go swimming in my neighbors pool and run through the sprinklers. I read on the hammock in my backyard and take pictures of the insane amount of flowers my mom plants every year. To say the least, I love the summer.
Many people claim that summer is their favorite season, but they really don't mean it. They just don't like school. I don't think that saying you like summer because school is out should count as a reason for liking the summer. If you like the summer, spend it right. By this I mean use the extra time you have away from school doing something fun and create lasting memories. My favorite memories from the summer usually have to do with the fourth of July. I always see my family for at least a week during July. When this happens it's a HUGE get together.
Last year my family all met in Indiana at my uncle Jeff's house. I love going there because he lives by farms, so he has an absurd amount of land just to hang out on. People play volleyball, ride go-carts, jump on the trampoline, go swimming, play corn hole (if you don't know what that is, you are missing out!), play football, and eat food. I had to include eating because when my family gets together there is no break from cooking. Last summer my family made enough food to fill out half of my uncle's barn! Sadly, I wasn't pleased because people devoured the mac & cheese, which was basically the only food there I liked. Well, I liked the desserts, but my mom limited me on them... Most of the food was the food listed on the dislike list in my FOOD FIGHT post. One more thing I forgot to mention when I listed things my family does at my uncle Jeff's house, is light fireworks. My family may spend a little too much money on fireworks. Last year we went to "Mark's Fireworks Factory Outlets". It's my favorite place to go for fireworks only because around the fourth of July they give out free T-shirts. Anyways, we went there and got over $400 worth of firework, but we only paid $300 dollars. The people who worked there were nice enough to give us around $100 of fireworks free.
If you can't tell by now, my uncle Jeff's house if pure fun. Another cool thing I like about visiting my family is that I usually always stay with my aunt Debbie. She works at Purdue University and knows that I want to attend college there. She is sure to load me up on Purdue merch. before I leave. My aunt always brings up the idea of going to the water park while we are there. It's usually my mom, dad, aunt Debbie, grandma, grandpa, brother, cousins Madison, Kaitlin, and Laura, and me. I usually spend most of my time on the lazy river and going down the water slide. It's loads of fun and my cousins usually spend our time chasing each other around the lazy river. We're strange, I know.
That is all packed into one week at the beginning of July. The rest of the summer I am home with friends. We ride our bikes to Dairy Queen occasionally, have bonfires, and multiple sleepovers. I go swimming in my neighbors pool and run through the sprinklers. I read on the hammock in my backyard and take pictures of the insane amount of flowers my mom plants every year. To say the least, I love the summer.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
FOOD FIGHT
The title of this post is very misleading. I have never been in a food fight or ever witnessed one. I titled it "FOOD FIGHT" simply because I'm going to talk (more like write) about the foods I like and dislike.Why? I have no clue. So here we go!
Favorites:
Dislikes. Don't ever feed me the following:
Favorites:
- spaghetti
- homemade mac & cheese
- cheerios (goldfish)
- cheerios (the cereal)
- most forms of chicken
- Ben & Jerry's half-baked ice cream
- PB & J
- green bean casserole
- my Grandma's chicken & noodles
Dislikes. Don't ever feed me the following:
- whipped cream/ cool whip
- cherries
- Kraft Mac & cheese
- Steak
- Ribs
- corn
- baked beans
- dark chocolate
- white chocolate
- any type of milk
- sweet potatoes
- stuffing
- hot dogs (unless they are from Home Depot.)
- hot sauce
- BBQ chips
- Crab/lobster
Obviously the dislike list is longer than the favorites list. I just don't like a lot of stuff. When ever my family eats anything in the dislike list, I just find something else to eat or don't eat at all. The food that would be pure torture for me to eat would have to be... Steak! Many people think I'm insane and claim that steak is the best food out there and it's expensive so you should eat it so the money doesn't go to waste. First, everyone has their own opinions on what they like and dislike so I am not insane. Second, if it's so expensive, then don't buy me any. I wont eat it.
Lucky you! You now know that to and not to feed me! You never know, this information could become very useful someday. Maybe not, but you never know.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Science is stupid and other stuff about dying
Sometimes I wonder who would cry if I died. Even better, if they would attend my funeral if someone cared enough to spend the time planning one for my dead body. I wonder if people would actually give me a funeral or cremate my body. I also wonder what life is like after you die. I think it's just one big party with Jesus in Heaven. I wish there was a way for me to find out and not die somehow. I wish after I die I could come back to life even for just a few second to tell everyone what Heaven is like and not to worry because I will be in a happy place. I also want to leave some sort of impact on the world. Even if it just a small one. If I don't I will feel like my life was a waste and someone who died younger could have had my lifespan and had a great effect.
Something else I wonder is if the dead are still with us. Do they watch us and protect us somehow or are the gone forever and in their afterlife they can't do anything to still be with us? I once found this one quote that said, "Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in Heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy," inspired by and Eskimo Legend. (website I found it on if you are wondering: http://www.lightfromabove.org/articles/quotes.html I feel like I'm doing something for language arts putting that). I really like that perspective of thinking. It supports my random idea that science takes away imagination and religion. I haven't told many people my view on this, but I have wrote stuff down about it before, but I don't know where, so I'm going to make it up as a go along! I want to start with, what if that quote were true? A scientist would just laugh and say, "You're stupid and wrong! Stars are simply balls of gases. Inside the gases fuse together to create explosions and other gases. This is called nuclear fusion and makes the stars glow. Oh, by the way, do you ever pay attention in science class?" They may not say that exactly, but I'm sure it would go along those lines. Anyway, I think anyone can come up with something somewhat reasonable and teach people that it is true. Eventually after enough people know about it, it will go in textbooks and kids will be forced to learn that it is true at school. I honestly try not to believe anything in science class. I know that is a bad thing to say, but really we don't really know if it is true. What if they people who came up with all these ideas that we know to be "true" today came up with something else just as believable instead? Would we go along and say, "hey, that sounds like it could be true! Why didn't I think of that before?!" If I got a T.A.R.D.I.S. I would go back in time to when people started figuring out what stars were and tell them the quote I stated earlier. I bet people would believe that and that is what people would learn in modern times.
Anyways, I love that quote and I am going to believe it is true from now on. I love it and think it is simply beautiful. Why scientists didn't think that too, I don't know. I think to be a scientist you would have to forget about religion, because many scientific facts go against a religious fact. Yeah I don't know where I'm going with this so let's move on, shall we?
That lovely quote also reminds me of the loved ones I have lost. I have lost my uncle, my great aunt, my great, great, great grandma, my two gerbils (not that big of a deal), and my dog. I would like to think that those Eskimos were right and they are happy up in Heaven. I would also like to expand on the thought of the quote and say that they are watching us, but not in a creepy way. I think the dead are looking upon earth, not to haunt it, but to never forget those who they held close to them. We may lose them, but they don't have to lose us. I think in Heaven people get to reunite with others they had lost before them and they all live happily wondering who will join them next and why they came. I think when people get to Heaven they can ask God how and/or why they or someone else died. If I go to Heaven, I will ask God how and why my dog Amber died. It has always been a mystery that has lingered over me for the past five years. I want to know what happened to her. Her death was so unexpected. For those of you reading this that don't know what happened, I'm sorry but I'm not going to post my memory of the event. If you really want to know, become my Language Arts teacher; I usually write something about it in LA.
This post has become fairly jumbled, but I wrote it over the course of a few days. I may or may not make sense, but this is what I came up with. A good day to you all (ya'll/you guys/ you people... what ever you prefer) and until next time...
Something else I wonder is if the dead are still with us. Do they watch us and protect us somehow or are the gone forever and in their afterlife they can't do anything to still be with us? I once found this one quote that said, "Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in Heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy," inspired by and Eskimo Legend. (website I found it on if you are wondering: http://www.lightfromabove.org/articles/quotes.html I feel like I'm doing something for language arts putting that). I really like that perspective of thinking. It supports my random idea that science takes away imagination and religion. I haven't told many people my view on this, but I have wrote stuff down about it before, but I don't know where, so I'm going to make it up as a go along! I want to start with, what if that quote were true? A scientist would just laugh and say, "You're stupid and wrong! Stars are simply balls of gases. Inside the gases fuse together to create explosions and other gases. This is called nuclear fusion and makes the stars glow. Oh, by the way, do you ever pay attention in science class?" They may not say that exactly, but I'm sure it would go along those lines. Anyway, I think anyone can come up with something somewhat reasonable and teach people that it is true. Eventually after enough people know about it, it will go in textbooks and kids will be forced to learn that it is true at school. I honestly try not to believe anything in science class. I know that is a bad thing to say, but really we don't really know if it is true. What if they people who came up with all these ideas that we know to be "true" today came up with something else just as believable instead? Would we go along and say, "hey, that sounds like it could be true! Why didn't I think of that before?!" If I got a T.A.R.D.I.S. I would go back in time to when people started figuring out what stars were and tell them the quote I stated earlier. I bet people would believe that and that is what people would learn in modern times.
Anyways, I love that quote and I am going to believe it is true from now on. I love it and think it is simply beautiful. Why scientists didn't think that too, I don't know. I think to be a scientist you would have to forget about religion, because many scientific facts go against a religious fact. Yeah I don't know where I'm going with this so let's move on, shall we?
That lovely quote also reminds me of the loved ones I have lost. I have lost my uncle, my great aunt, my great, great, great grandma, my two gerbils (not that big of a deal), and my dog. I would like to think that those Eskimos were right and they are happy up in Heaven. I would also like to expand on the thought of the quote and say that they are watching us, but not in a creepy way. I think the dead are looking upon earth, not to haunt it, but to never forget those who they held close to them. We may lose them, but they don't have to lose us. I think in Heaven people get to reunite with others they had lost before them and they all live happily wondering who will join them next and why they came. I think when people get to Heaven they can ask God how and/or why they or someone else died. If I go to Heaven, I will ask God how and why my dog Amber died. It has always been a mystery that has lingered over me for the past five years. I want to know what happened to her. Her death was so unexpected. For those of you reading this that don't know what happened, I'm sorry but I'm not going to post my memory of the event. If you really want to know, become my Language Arts teacher; I usually write something about it in LA.
This post has become fairly jumbled, but I wrote it over the course of a few days. I may or may not make sense, but this is what I came up with. A good day to you all (ya'll/you guys/ you people... what ever you prefer) and until next time...
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Apology
I am sorry for the rather lengthly posts lately. I just really like writing and letting my emotions out this way. When ever I'm sad, mad, or annoyed I can easily go to writing something to ease my stress. I guess you can say that writing is my form of therapy. Instead of talking about my problems, I write about them. Writing is just something I like to do, so if you don't like reading... well you're out of luck. You may do a lot of it on this blog. Again I'm sorry and I'm making up for it by making this post really short. Okay bye :)
Things I want to Accomplish
I am sitting in my bedroom at 11:40 p.m. writing this for three reasons. One, I can't sleep. I am just no tired at all really and I had too much Ben & Jerry's Half-Baked ice-cream. Two, I always seem to have more imagination and creativity late at night or early in the morning. Three, I came up with an idea and when I come up with ideas I like to write it down before I forget or just finish up that idea by doing it right away and not getting annoyed because I forgot later. Anyways, as you can tell this blog post is about things I want to accomplish in my life. Here's my top 10:
1. Graduate high school on study interior design and/or photography at Purdue University.
2. Write a book even if it doesn't get published.
3. Learn to play guitar.
4. Learn to speak fluent German.
5. Ger married to someone who loves me for who I am and who I can't live without.
6. Form a closer relationship with my family.
7. Travel to places I always wished to go.
8. Move out of Michigan (preferably somewhere warm).
9. Be a contestant on Jeopardy, even if I don't win.
10. Never forget to be me in everything I do.
Now for reasonings behind each one! The first one is because that is what I am interested in and I want a solid start to my life on my own. The Purdue University part is because I have grown up learning to love Purdue as many of people on my mom's side of the family attended that school and I have an Aunt that currently works there. My mom actually planned to have my Aunt "adopt" after high school that way I can get in for a discounted price. :)
The second was just because I love reading and writing. If I write a book and actually get it published (not likely) then I will just be expanding the options of books for others to choose from and hopefully with inspire or encourage people to read and write too. Also, I think it would be cool if I could write a book good enough to go on school reading lists.
The third is just because I got a guitar for Christmas a few years back, but never got around to learning to play it. My dad also got one forever ago, so we were hoping to learn together so we could spend more time together seeing as we don't get to see each other that much. If anyone is wondering that is because my dad is usually always working to earn money to support my family and to prevent himself from losing his job. He also helps coach my brothers hockey team and hockey is something both my brother and dad enjoy doing, so they spend most of their free time working on that. So after all of that there isn't much time in the day for anything else. I am also so absorbed in school, reading, and random internet stuff, that I don't really have much of a social life. Also, I have wanted to learn to play the guitar for a long time. I always thought it sounded really pretty.
Number four! German... I am currently in a German II class at school, which is really fun. I am also in German club, which has nothing to do with German really but is fun. I want to become fluent in German because my dad's side of my family is from Germany, so it would be cool to speak the language my ancestors spoke. Also because we only get to choose between Spanish, German, and French at school and I hate Spanish and French (I find them to be horrid languages and sound so ugly and difficult to learn) so I picked German. I think it would be cool to find someone else to speak German with and have secret conversations in German with all those people who don't know German. I got this idea last year when my two "Asian Buddies" were talking about how they thought there was something going on between two of the teachers at my school, but they said it in Chinese so no one really had any idea what they were saying. I thought that was pretty cool.
Number five is kinda self explanatory. I plan on getting married someday and I don't want to be married to some hobo that hates me and I hate back. So yeahhhhh.....
Six was briefly explained with the guitar thing, but when I said family in this one I mainly meant my brother. Those of you who know about the relationship between my brother and I think this is probably the one thing I will never be able to accomplish. We kinda don't get along and basically act like we hate each other and can not stand one another's presence. Well, I want to change that. Not to where we have heart-to-heart conversations, but to where we can actually stand each other and talk somewhat like friends.
Seven is about traveling. Okay for this one I want to include a few places I would like to travel. I want to go basically all over Europe, Australia, Belize, Hawaii, Brazil, and most islands in the Caribbean (I have quite a few of those covered already). I just like traveling and exploring new places. If you didn't catch on, most of the mentioned places have a warm climate. I really like places with an average temperature of around 80 degrees... Fahrenheit... not Celsius that would be a little too hot. But anyways, I like traveling and want to do more of it sometime.
LEAVE MICHIGAN! I'm sorry to all of my Michigan friends who would like to stay and don't want me to leave, but I hate it here. I love my friends, but hate the place. I can't stand anything about Michigan except it's Summers. Those are okay, too bad the warm weather only lasts about 3 months.
Already at number nine! Lately I have been watching a lot of Jeopardy. I get really excited and happy when I get a question right. I just wish they had a whole category on Harry Potter trivia. I just think it would be fun to participate on the show, even if I lose.
Last but not least, I want to be myself. I think that is the most important thing someone could remember to do. I believe that being yourself is something that many people forget to do and just do what it takes to fit in. People will try to become skinny because that is considered pretty and they will forget just to be themselves and absorbed in trying to be skinny to fit in with everyone else. It's kinda like Katy Perry's song Firework.
So those are the ten things I want to do/ accomplish with my life. I don't care if people think I'm wasting my time with any of them, it's what I want to do and I'm going to do it!
1. Graduate high school on study interior design and/or photography at Purdue University.
2. Write a book even if it doesn't get published.
3. Learn to play guitar.
4. Learn to speak fluent German.
5. Ger married to someone who loves me for who I am and who I can't live without.
6. Form a closer relationship with my family.
7. Travel to places I always wished to go.
8. Move out of Michigan (preferably somewhere warm).
9. Be a contestant on Jeopardy, even if I don't win.
10. Never forget to be me in everything I do.
Now for reasonings behind each one! The first one is because that is what I am interested in and I want a solid start to my life on my own. The Purdue University part is because I have grown up learning to love Purdue as many of people on my mom's side of the family attended that school and I have an Aunt that currently works there. My mom actually planned to have my Aunt "adopt" after high school that way I can get in for a discounted price. :)
The second was just because I love reading and writing. If I write a book and actually get it published (not likely) then I will just be expanding the options of books for others to choose from and hopefully with inspire or encourage people to read and write too. Also, I think it would be cool if I could write a book good enough to go on school reading lists.
The third is just because I got a guitar for Christmas a few years back, but never got around to learning to play it. My dad also got one forever ago, so we were hoping to learn together so we could spend more time together seeing as we don't get to see each other that much. If anyone is wondering that is because my dad is usually always working to earn money to support my family and to prevent himself from losing his job. He also helps coach my brothers hockey team and hockey is something both my brother and dad enjoy doing, so they spend most of their free time working on that. So after all of that there isn't much time in the day for anything else. I am also so absorbed in school, reading, and random internet stuff, that I don't really have much of a social life. Also, I have wanted to learn to play the guitar for a long time. I always thought it sounded really pretty.
Number four! German... I am currently in a German II class at school, which is really fun. I am also in German club, which has nothing to do with German really but is fun. I want to become fluent in German because my dad's side of my family is from Germany, so it would be cool to speak the language my ancestors spoke. Also because we only get to choose between Spanish, German, and French at school and I hate Spanish and French (I find them to be horrid languages and sound so ugly and difficult to learn) so I picked German. I think it would be cool to find someone else to speak German with and have secret conversations in German with all those people who don't know German. I got this idea last year when my two "Asian Buddies" were talking about how they thought there was something going on between two of the teachers at my school, but they said it in Chinese so no one really had any idea what they were saying. I thought that was pretty cool.
Number five is kinda self explanatory. I plan on getting married someday and I don't want to be married to some hobo that hates me and I hate back. So yeahhhhh.....
Six was briefly explained with the guitar thing, but when I said family in this one I mainly meant my brother. Those of you who know about the relationship between my brother and I think this is probably the one thing I will never be able to accomplish. We kinda don't get along and basically act like we hate each other and can not stand one another's presence. Well, I want to change that. Not to where we have heart-to-heart conversations, but to where we can actually stand each other and talk somewhat like friends.
Seven is about traveling. Okay for this one I want to include a few places I would like to travel. I want to go basically all over Europe, Australia, Belize, Hawaii, Brazil, and most islands in the Caribbean (I have quite a few of those covered already). I just like traveling and exploring new places. If you didn't catch on, most of the mentioned places have a warm climate. I really like places with an average temperature of around 80 degrees... Fahrenheit... not Celsius that would be a little too hot. But anyways, I like traveling and want to do more of it sometime.
LEAVE MICHIGAN! I'm sorry to all of my Michigan friends who would like to stay and don't want me to leave, but I hate it here. I love my friends, but hate the place. I can't stand anything about Michigan except it's Summers. Those are okay, too bad the warm weather only lasts about 3 months.
Already at number nine! Lately I have been watching a lot of Jeopardy. I get really excited and happy when I get a question right. I just wish they had a whole category on Harry Potter trivia. I just think it would be fun to participate on the show, even if I lose.
Last but not least, I want to be myself. I think that is the most important thing someone could remember to do. I believe that being yourself is something that many people forget to do and just do what it takes to fit in. People will try to become skinny because that is considered pretty and they will forget just to be themselves and absorbed in trying to be skinny to fit in with everyone else. It's kinda like Katy Perry's song Firework.
So those are the ten things I want to do/ accomplish with my life. I don't care if people think I'm wasting my time with any of them, it's what I want to do and I'm going to do it!
Friday, February 4, 2011
PARANOIA and spiders, but mainly spiders
par·a·noi·a
[par-uh-noi-uh]–noun
1.
Psychiatry . a mental disorder characterized by systematizeddelusions and the projection of personal conflicts, which areascribed to the supposed hostility of others, sometimesprogressing to disturbances of consciousness and aggressiveacts believed to be performed in self-defense or as a mission.
2.
baseless or excessive suspicion of the motives of others.
After finding this definition I realized that I have been using the word wrong, because I don't have a mental disorder... or at least I don't think I have one. If I do, then people have been hiding things from me. Anyways, I usually seem a little paranoid, even with the littlest things. For example, I get paranoid that there is a bug in my drink (especially in the summer when I leave drinks outside on the deck), that there is food on my face after I eat, or even that there is a creepy, stalker, murderer dude hiding in my house waiting to kill me or someone else. However, the most common subject that causes me to become paranoid are spiders.
Spiders give me the creeps. They disgust me with their abnormal amount of legs and eyes. The hairy ones make everything worse. Oh, and I don't care what size they are, they are still freaky. Let's just say that if I went into the Forbidden Forest and saw Aragog (before he died obviously) I would probably pass out and then he or his children would eat me. I don't find that a very good way to die. Another Harry Potter reference here, if you want to know how scared I am of spiders, take Ronald Weasley's fear of them and multiply it by roughly 5,000 and you will get my fear.
I have had wayyyyyy too many encounters with spiders in my life. One of the scariest was when I was getting ready to get to bed and a spider crawled out from underneath my pillow and behind my bed. I started screaming and asked everyone in my house to kill it. However, they all told me not to worry about and just go to sleep (pfft! They thought I was going to sleep in my bed after witnessing that! They're crazy!) or get a yard stick and try to smash it with that. Long story short, I never found it and slept on the floor in my room after trying to hunt down the spider for a good 3 hours. Another time I woke up and there was a HUGE spider on my wall. By huge I mean about 2-3 inches wide including legs. I then bolted out of my room and into my parents room begging for one of them to go kill it. They told me to go back to my room to make sure it was there then ask them again. Sure enough I went to my room and the spider had vanished. I bet my parents thought I went mental after that. One last spider incident was when I went to visit my grandparents in Texas. My family decided that we were going to drive around until we found some longhorns. So off we went and after about and hour or two of driving my dad stopped the car and exclaimed, "Woah! Look there's a tarantula in the road!" Everyone got out of the car and those with cameras grabbed them to take some pictures. Allen (my brother) asked me why I wasn't coming and if I wanted him to take pictures for me. I obviously said something along the lines of, "Are you kidding?! You couldn't pay me to get out of this car to look at a spider! I don't want to see any pictures of it either!" So there my family went to spend ten minutes of their lives looking at a gigantic spider in the middle of the road. I still have two more stories I would like to share, but these I don't find quite as interesting, but you might think they are, so read on! The last two both took place at my friends house about 3 years ago I believe. The first story was that my friend and I were sitting on a small sofa in her basement when we suddenly saw something moving by our feet. We both screamed and jumped on the sofa at the same time. Of course the spider was HUGE and closer to me. We kept yelling for my friends mom to come and kill it, because we were both chicken. That was the lamer of the two. The very last one was again at my friends house and her cousins were over so we were hanging out with them and my friends two sisters. Suddenly in the middle of the conversation my friends cousin, who isn't all that believable sometimes, pointed out that there was a spider behind us. We just laughed and said, "No there's not," to which he responded, "Look then". We turned around and screamed. As we started to let out our unnaturally loud screams the power shut down. We ran as fast as we could upstairs avoiding the area we knew the spider was located. We started telling everyone upstairs what happened and when the power came back on we all went back downstairs and the spider was gone.
I would also like to add that I have only killed two spiders in my entire life. When I killed the first one I grabbed 5-6 tissues before picking it up to squish between my fingers only to flush it down the toilet a few moments later. Why 5-6 you ask? Well the answer is quite simple and makes complete sense in my mind, so if you think it is a ridiculous answer, then remember I'm not 100% sane sometimes. My answer is that I'm afraid the spider will bite me through only a few tissues. Keep in mind that this spider was only about 1 centimeter wide including legs. It couldn't possibly bite me though the tissue, but I just had that thought it would. Hey, better safe than sorry right? The second spider I have ever killed was when a spider appeared on my desk while I was at my computer. I freaked out then put a bowl over it so it wouldn't escape while I went to get something it kill it with. I ending up using the same technique as the first one because I was quite successful the first time. However, it still took me awhile to build up the confidence to flip the bowl over. I did manage, but it took longer than it should have.
Also, I would like to share why I came up with this topic to write about. I was talking to my friend Jazmine about how I saw this picture yesterday: http://www.tasteofawesome.com/get_image.php?i=201101311257275ffc7fbbbbe5edfc7c4e4091f866bc66.jpg
(Warning: If you are really scared of large spiders, get paranoid easily, and use toilet paper often, then this photo is not for you)
I mentioned how I was paranoid that there will be a spider on the toilet paper roll every time I use the restroom. She mentioned writing about paranoia, so that's what I did. :) Hope you enjoyed laughing at my extreme fear of spiders. If you didn't laugh, then you are a good person.
P.S. I am afraid of going to science because of spiders. My teacher has a bunch of dead bug in a glass thing and there is a huge spider in there. It is bigger than my fist. Well I estimated that. I have never been within a 10 range of it. It's freaky!!!!! One time someone said "Oh, I thought that was real." I was relieved thinking that it was fake until my teacher said, "Oh no it's real." Gosh darn it. Why can't she lie and make me not scared of science. Writing this gives me the creeps!
I would also like to add that I have only killed two spiders in my entire life. When I killed the first one I grabbed 5-6 tissues before picking it up to squish between my fingers only to flush it down the toilet a few moments later. Why 5-6 you ask? Well the answer is quite simple and makes complete sense in my mind, so if you think it is a ridiculous answer, then remember I'm not 100% sane sometimes. My answer is that I'm afraid the spider will bite me through only a few tissues. Keep in mind that this spider was only about 1 centimeter wide including legs. It couldn't possibly bite me though the tissue, but I just had that thought it would. Hey, better safe than sorry right? The second spider I have ever killed was when a spider appeared on my desk while I was at my computer. I freaked out then put a bowl over it so it wouldn't escape while I went to get something it kill it with. I ending up using the same technique as the first one because I was quite successful the first time. However, it still took me awhile to build up the confidence to flip the bowl over. I did manage, but it took longer than it should have.
Also, I would like to share why I came up with this topic to write about. I was talking to my friend Jazmine about how I saw this picture yesterday: http://www.tasteofawesome.com/get_image.php?i=201101311257275ffc7fbbbbe5edfc7c4e4091f866bc66.jpg
(Warning: If you are really scared of large spiders, get paranoid easily, and use toilet paper often, then this photo is not for you)
I mentioned how I was paranoid that there will be a spider on the toilet paper roll every time I use the restroom. She mentioned writing about paranoia, so that's what I did. :) Hope you enjoyed laughing at my extreme fear of spiders. If you didn't laugh, then you are a good person.
P.S. I am afraid of going to science because of spiders. My teacher has a bunch of dead bug in a glass thing and there is a huge spider in there. It is bigger than my fist. Well I estimated that. I have never been within a 10 range of it. It's freaky!!!!! One time someone said "Oh, I thought that was real." I was relieved thinking that it was fake until my teacher said, "Oh no it's real." Gosh darn it. Why can't she lie and make me not scared of science. Writing this gives me the creeps!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Snow
If you know me well, then you probably know that I absolutely HATE snow. I think it is the worst thing that has ever happened to this planet. By living in Michigan I have to see it, walk though it, and deal with it half of the year. This does not please me... at all. I should probably evacuate my house and go to Guatemala or something during the winter to get away from the snow, but I sadly cannot do this. Oh and did I mention I'm writing this while my house is being ambushed by snow? Yeah, it's a blizzard and I'm kinda scared the power is going to go out and I will freeze to death. Slight exaggeration, but still possible. Now, if you are thinking that this will just be a long rant about snow, then you are wrong. There is one positive effect of snow. SNOW DAYS.
I like snow days for multiple reasons. The first reason may come as a surprise to you (probably not). It's that I have to go to school. That's always a bonus. My second reason is I get to sleep as much as I would like. This is a really good thing because I enjoy sleeping. Another reason why I like snow days is I get to finish my homework that I was not able to finish the night before. Not real exciting, but is still a positive. Also on snow days I can eat whenever and whatever I want, I can go on the computer basically all day, I can play/watch my brother play COD Black Ops almost all day, I can watch re-runs of my favorite shows on T.V., and I can stay in my pajamas all day :)
However, I still have to take my dog out for walk occasionally, which requires me walking through the snow. Other than that, snow days are pretty awesome no matter how much I despise the snow and cold.
Interesting fact about snow days: At my Middle School there was a "snow tie", which was worn by the science teacher who currently owned it the day before a predicted snow day. This tie has never been wrong.
I like snow days for multiple reasons. The first reason may come as a surprise to you (probably not). It's that I have to go to school. That's always a bonus. My second reason is I get to sleep as much as I would like. This is a really good thing because I enjoy sleeping. Another reason why I like snow days is I get to finish my homework that I was not able to finish the night before. Not real exciting, but is still a positive. Also on snow days I can eat whenever and whatever I want, I can go on the computer basically all day, I can play/watch my brother play COD Black Ops almost all day, I can watch re-runs of my favorite shows on T.V., and I can stay in my pajamas all day :)
However, I still have to take my dog out for walk occasionally, which requires me walking through the snow. Other than that, snow days are pretty awesome no matter how much I despise the snow and cold.
Interesting fact about snow days: At my Middle School there was a "snow tie", which was worn by the science teacher who currently owned it the day before a predicted snow day. This tie has never been wrong.
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